Puvis et umbra sumus

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Day 2 of fast.
I managed to do it yesterday again, so pleased.

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone. I like eating alone, and listening to music alone. It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.

Ask me questions or say hello or anything to distract me? x

It’s such a beautiful day and I want to do something but I feel too disgusting so I’ll just lie in bed all day and look at thinspos while drinking coffee and chainsmoking 

Isn’t it ironic that even though I’ve been diagnosed now with IBS and I have to eat to get better I’m not going to eat and I’m going to get worse both ways. 
things are bad right now. I don’t really know what to do.